I can't forget

I don't know how to talk to you.
I don't know how to feel.
I'm always thinking about you.
And I'm too weak to leave.
I don't know if it's good.
I don't know if it's bad.
I don't know if you hate me.
Or if you still care.
This time I can't just leave.
I just can't run away.
And even though I never wanted this.
It just found it's way back.
If you only knew.
If you only saw.
Just for once.
It's too bad.
You think I'm like this.
Even though I'm like that.
I know I do this.
But just because of that.
It's hard to explain.
It's hard to see.
But I just can't forget.
No I can't forget that night.
For once my heart skipped a beat.
It's not a lie, it really did.
But I just think it was a one time thing.
For you, only a one time thing.
So now, I can't just watch.
And if I can't have you.
There's no way back.
So either I tell,
Or either I don't.
Either way, I will cry alot.