Pain , pleasure

”My pain my pleasure
Lost words in angry humour
you said it was you and I
you said that God and them in heaven couldn't separate us,
You said you loved me more and you make me believe that.
Desperate, tears running down my cheeks oh if only eyes could see
Warm bed warm bodies kisses on my body.
Screaming he says he loves me closed my eyes and all I could see was your goodbye.
Voices in my head as naked body next to me
Afraid of commitment afraid of saying yes to them voices I lost my self .
Touches on my body , kisses, late night calls , happy ice cream hour , holding hands, beautiful compliment, and yet all I can see is your goodbye. You were my pain and my pleasure ”